Not pregnant. I can't believe I have to write that again.
The nurse suggested that I sit down for a consult with the doctor since this makes three failed embryo transfers, so I have that appointment Tuesday.
When I first got the news, of course it feels like the world has come to an end. Tonight I am trying to pull myself out of that by reminding myself what I have to be thankful for.
* So many people do not have ANY fertility coverage with their insurance. I do.... a maximum of 4 IVF attempts so I still have coverage for one more.
* There are some women that decide to try for single motherhood and their parent's don't approve or they don't feel comfortable telling many people in their life about their choice. My mother has been with me for each transfer and each time stayed for a couple days after to "take care of me." It hurts me to have to tell her it didn't work because she's been such a part of this whole process. I have incredibly supportive and compassionate friends; in fact, everyone that I have shared this with has been nothing but supportive. Which brings me to:
*I've been dating someone since June (met him right after my first transfer) and when I told him on our third date that I was actively trying to become pregnant, I also told him that I completely understood if he ran in the other direction. He didn't. In fact, he's been pretty amazing.
For now, I'm going to drink a lot of alcohol this weekend, oh and go back to drinking my water cold and drinking diet coke, and then Tuesday meet with the doctor. I don't think there are any more embryos left from the set I have been using, and quite honestly it's probably time to look at other embryos anyhow. Whether they have some available and I could get started right away on another attempt or not, I am going to take a little break. Maybe a couple of months. Just to breathe, relax, enjoy life.... at least that's my thought at the moment.
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