How long til I feel better?

It's been 2 weeks since I got the results for my last attempt, and so far it hasn't gotten much easier. I think because this was the first time that I actually "talked" to the embryos after they were transferred and during the whole wait.... it probably sounds really corny unless you've been there yourself. I know that eventually I won't feel so incredibly sad, but right now it seems I can't get through a day without crying. I've been reading a lot online about adoption... and several threads that specifically talk about moving from fertility treatments/trying to conceive to adoption. A number of women wrote about how the roller coaster of fertility led to the worst grief they had ever experienced and in the end they still weren't mothers. The process of adoption is still a roller coaster with a long road, but many said that there was more hope with it, because in the end, there WOULD be a child that would become their own. Maybe not a brand new baby, and maybe not the first child that would come into their home, but they KNEW the process would only end once they became a mother. Fertility treatments have to end at some point, with or without a child. Such a different way of thinking then how I HAD been thinking the past couple of years. Silly me, I thought getting pregnant would somehow be easier and more of a sure thing then adopting.