This morning was my first appointment for this cycle, and they start with a bunch of blood work to get a baseline on all the different levels. I feel a little like I've been punched in the stomach because the results indicate my ovarian reserve has continued to worsen, and this time, instead of the nurse being positive about how I've responded to the meds, she said that my FSH came back at 25.6, the highest it's ever been, and although we'll go ahead with this cycle, the doctor wants to sit down for a consult with me after this. It's hard to get my brain around it when here I had been thinking wow, I'm ending up with follicles and ovulating so it's very possible to get pregnant, but to me this sounds like like we're back to it's practically impossible. I found this online:
A normal FSH level is usually under 10, whereas an abnormal level is anything above 25. Measurements between 10 and 25 are generally considered borderline. FSH testing is thought to be an accurate predictor of ovarian reserve. A New Jersey study monitored women with abnormal FSH levels who became pregnant - less than 1% actually had a live birth, with two-thirds miscarrying. High levels of FSH were also found to be good indicators of genetic abnormalities in babies.
Less than 1%. Why am I reading this?!? I'm just sooooo sad and discouraged and angry. I feel like I got my hopes up and the science/reality part is that this most likely will NOT happen. I have to believe it still can because I'm buying more sperm and starting up the drugs again Wednesday, but.... UGH.
I keep reminding myself about the donor embryo option.... I know that still gives hope to carrying and having a baby, and it helps to have that in the back of my mind.
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